While I was physically wiped out and exhausted, I struggled through emotional pain as well. I don't like being sick but I mostly don't like not knowing WHAT is wrong, and what is causing so much pain. During this time I wished that Dr. House was a real person and that he could come and magically tell me within 45 minutes what was wrong. I was living on my couch, both because I was physically uncomfortable and because the emotional stress of dealing with this and not being able to continue with my training as planned made me feel as if the world I used to know was suddenly very different.
After getting the (relatively) good news that it was just a cyst (painful as it may be), my world started looking bright again. The doctor said I could resume physical exercise as long as I felt comfortable and didn't push myself too hard. So I started looking up some inspiration online for getting back on track. I just felt like such a mess...the apartment was dirty, laundry was piling up, I had work to do for classes and I hadn't exercised in over a week. I found lots of inspiration and the next thing I knew I had a clean kitchen (like the cleanest it's been since I moved in). Then I moved on to the living and dining room and tidied my life back up. Then that night (last night) I hit the gym for the first time. I didn't do much (just some chest presses and a little back work and walked for 2 miles) but I felt invigorated just by being back there and NOT being on the couch. Here are some of the inspirations I found...hopefully, if you are feeling lazy or bad about yourself because you have fallen into a workout slump, these will help you as they helped me. I am happy to report that I plan on doing another light walk today and get back on the official training plan as I feel comfortable. Thank you to all of my friends who have supported me...I can't wait to make you proud after I finish this race!
"Think of yourself as a toy train. All toy trains de-rail now and then. Pick yourself up, dust yourself off and get back on track."
"Rather than viewing a brief relapse back to inactivity as a failure, treat it as a challenge and try to get back on track as soon as possible."--Jimmy Connors (American Tennis Player)
"Rest when you're weary. Refresh and renew yourself, your body, your mind, your spirit. Then get back to work"--Ralph Marston